Toddler time...

Biggest Loser season premeire tonight at 8pm. I plan to watch. This was probably the only show that I made a point to watch last year. Mainly because my friends and roommates hung out during this time and worked out before the show. We did the Julian Michaels body shred.  I always felt more compassion for the contestants after doing the body shred. Julian is intense on a DVD. I can't imagine her in real life, with 300 plus pound on me too!

Today I spent three hours of my life watching two year olds. I never thought I would be a "teacher", if you can call it that, of two year olds. I tried to read a book to them for our lesson but their attention span is about as long as their little feet are big. The mind of a two year old is funny. They are just starting to perceive things. I'm always so focused on moving to the next thing on the schedule though while I'm working with them. I guess that's what I'm supposed to do. But I realize that as I focus on keeping with the schedule for them my patience for unforseen things such as scrapes, bumps, or boo-boos is small. My compassion level also decreases some too. Small fears of one day being a Mrs. Trunchbull type mother creeped into my mind today when one of the boys scraped his knee on the playground and one of the girls walked right into a metal post. Both of them began shedding tears swollen from pain, missing their mommie, who each one desperately wanted in that moment. I have to say that my heart did not melt with compassion for either of them. Not to say that I didn't feel compassion or try to comfort them because I did, but I knew they would be okay. But to the injured toddlers it was the end of the world. The pain came suddenly for them, disturbing their peaceful world of sandbox playland and toddler talk.  They did not seem to understand that it would pass nor that the injury was very small.

I certianly couldn't be a mom now, and don't really want to be right now. How Mrs. Dugger does/did it I'll never know. Caring for children in a good way, a way in which you love them and they love you back, etc. is definitely a calling.